i love the feeling of empowerment that comes from being alone in a crowd. in ny, when i got to an event alone it brings a rush of energy and happiness. i'm finding it harder to achieve that feeling in a smaller city where more folks know each other. The anonymous feeling i love sometimes turns into something more similar to loneliness than independence.
i am glad i went to see the movie beautiful losers last night. there was a special screening at the mayan, a beautiful old art deco aztec-themed theater, followed by a q&a with director aaron rose. it's not often that i get to sit and watch a movie about some of my favorite artists. and this movie really is about the people. aaron talked about how they conducted interviews with a bunch of high profile critics and in the end those interviews couldn't be included in the movie because they ruined the spirit of it. the current version provides viewers with insight into the real lives of 12 creative souls.
i cried when the movie reached the point in time when margaret kilgallen got sick and ended up dying only a couple of weeks after giving birth to her daughter, asha. and i loved hearing about how painfully shy barry mcgee is and how he had to be tricked into providing an interview. (harmony korine is endearingly odd! and a little scary.) i adore this movie.
if you get a chance, go see this movie. i'm already looking forward to seeing it again.